I originally posted this on my Mission Year blog back in February of ’09. I was reading it again the other night, and wanted to share with you here:
You embrace me when I fight You.
You clean me off when I become dirty in spite of You.
You tell me You love me when I scream my hate at You.
You will never leave me nor forsake me.
When I laugh You laugh with me.
When I have joy You celebrate with me.
When I love You love infinitely more.
You will never leave me nor forsake me.
If I am crying, You wipe my tear.
If I am wracked with sorrow You comfort me.
If I am in pain You sooth me.
You will never leave me nor forsake me.
Though I do not understand,
Though I will never comprehend,
Though I can not truly appreciate,
You will never leave me nor forsake me.
Abba,
Your love for me is boundless and know no depths, and while I know that, while I ever really get it? I don’t know. But I thank you daily for who You are. Who You tell me that I am in You. I feel as though I’m never getting it right when it comes to understanding your love for me, but you smile as only a Father can, hug me to your chest, and just chuckle. Understanding that though I may not get it I am trying. And I am. I am chasing after you with everything that I Know that I have. But I still feel as though I’m failing at it. You show me that I’m not. I get scared though…and wait for you. When you show up I am a mess…but you remind me how to clean it up, and then do it with me. You are always there. You always have been, and always will be. For that there are no words for me to tell You THANK YOU. But I will anyway.
Thank You.
Love,
Your son.
